I wrote this today. It describes how I feel right now and when my mental illnesses act up:
No rhyme or reason, yet mental treason.
Anxiety hits me as I start my day, not matter what I can say. Behind this smile on my face, is holding back tears trace.
I’m struggling with wanting to show up for an event to show support to a friend and organization, and taking care of myself. #mentalhealth
I woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare. I tried to shack off the anxiety that caused it.
Went back to sleep and the nightmare continued. Now the anxiety is heightened. Sigh. #LivingWithMentalIllnesses #endthestigma
So upset, sad, angry and lots of anxiety today. Solution to a problem is unreachable right now and causing me lots of stress.
All of my stuff in storage might be on the streets soon because I have no way to get it to me. I don’t have any money for gas to have someone bring it to me, to heavy for my car to handle and don’t want to use my credit card because I’m trying to stay out of debit. 😥
I woke up in the middle of the night and had a panic attack. I know that it was probably caused by all of the anxiety I was having that day. I had to ground myself in yoga, and that helped for a while. I was having a hard time controlling my anxiety because my mind was racing through out the day and worrying about everything. Probably seeing problems not even there. So it doesn’t surprise me that I had a panic attack. Thankfully cuddling Blue, my blue hippo aromatherapy stuffie a friend got me, helped; along with other distractions like Facebook.
Tightness in my chest, anxiety maybe. Deep breathing into my belly exercises I learned in yoga class is helping.
Today isn’t much better. It isn’t just politics, it’s several things in my life. Everything at once rolling down a hill and I can’t stop it.