Early this morning around 1am I woke up and started having a panic attack after going to the bathroom. I’m not sure if because of stomach issues or what, I started having a panic attack. I tried to calm down. Though, I couldn’t. Majority of the time I don’t know what brings on a panic attack. I tried Mindfulness, touching objects and concentrating on them. Though, it did not work. I kept getting worse. I was nauseated. I felt like I was burning hot from the inside. I was hot. My heartbeat was racing. I felt like I was going to die. I kept getting hotter. I felt it consuming me. I felt overwhelming dread. I called my Daddy. Sometimes cuddling him helps but he couldn’t come over, so he talked with me on the phone awhile. It helped and I started to calm down. I ate some pickled ginger. I feel that ginger can kill about anything, and it helps with my nausea. I was still having issues and fighting panic attacks. I looked at pictures I took of my kitties on Neko Astume and cuddled one of my Hello Kitty stuffies for a couple hours. I turned the AC on to cool me off. It all helped and I finally could go to sleep.
I woke up again and still not feeling good. I took a shower and rested. My nausea was bad and panic attack seemed to have died down. Before I left for work I ate some more pickled ginger and drank some Propel water, brought water with me too.
This morning I slowly started to feel better. Light nausea and no panic attacked. I finally ate something around 11am. I thought I was doing good.
Bam! Panic attack is back and I’m fighting it right now. Nausea is still light. I just want to go home. I don’t want to freak out at work. I keep telling myself I have a strong mind and it is helping. Deep breaths. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I’m sure it will pass soon. Lunch break in an hour can’t come quick enough.