Why I am here?

I’m a mixture of eclectic and eccentric.  I’m wrapped in glitter, rolled in rainbow sprinkles and dipped in geekdom.  I would consider myself strange, weird, freaky and unusual.  I often thought of myself as alone in the world.  I mean who could possible relate to me or understand me? Who could possibly get me?! I spiraled down a path of anxiety and depression.  My world became a single window view of life and worries.  Though, once I started talking a little bit about what I was going through I started to realize I wasn’t alone.  I decided that it would be healthy for me to share my experiences with others, and hopefully it will help others know they are not alone. In addition, I hope to bring positive energy, kindness, knowledge and experience to others.

If you would like, come with me on my path in life.

Warning: I will post adult content from time to time. You must be of legal adult age in your state or country to read my blog.

Thankful May: Days 9-22

Thankful May: Days 9-22
Day 9: I’m grateful for rain.
Day 10: I’m grateful for walks.
Day 11: I’m grateful for technology.
Day 12: I’m grateful for surviving every day.
Day 13: I’m grateful for ac.
Day 14: I’m grateful for my mom.
Day 15: I’m grateful for trying a harder type yoga for me.
Day 16: I’m grateful for my life.
Day 17: I’m grateful for my shows.
Day 18: I’m grateful for lots of cuddles with my Daddy.
Day 19: I’m grateful for fans.
Day 20: I’m grateful for friends getting married.
Day 21: I’m grateful for talking with my Daddy.
Day 22: I’m grateful for coffee.

Adult Meme

Tired of all of those surveys made up by high school kids?! Like “Have you ever kissed someone? Missed someone? Told someone you loved them? ” Well then, here’s 34 questions for “grownups”…

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?
Rent, only because it’s the highest bill. I’m grateful to have my own place.

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner? At my Daddy’s

3. What do you really want to be doing right now? What I’m doing right now

4. How many colleges did you attend? Two, junior college twice and university once.

5. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now? Comfort and warmth

6. What are your thoughts on gas prices? They are not terrible here but wish they would go down more

7. First thought when the alarm went off this morning? No alarm today

8. Last thought before going to sleep last night? Cuddling Mr Awesome Llama and thinking about a Con that just happened in April
that I wish I could have attended.

9. Do you miss being a child? In some ways, but majority no

10. What errand/chore do despise most? Cooking for myself

11. Get up early or sleep in? Sleep in but most days I wake up early.

12. Have you found real love yet? Oh yes

13. Favorite lunch meat? Ham

14. What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart? Increased Anxiety and negative vibes

15. Beach or Lake? Lake

16. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual? Only with government involvement.

17. What famous person would you like to have dinner with? Misha Collins

18. Have you ever crashed your vehicle? Not my new car

19. Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose? No thankfully

20. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? Outside

21. Somewhere in California you never been and would like to go? Hello Kitty cafe

22. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship? Career and since I’m polyamours I would like a girlfriend too.

23. How old are you? 40

24. Do you have a favorite person? There are a few

25. Are you where you want to be in life? I’m some ways no. Though in ways of having my own place, job, car and life in better control that 16 years ago….yes

26. Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons? So many, all of them I watched them all lol

27. What about you do you think about you has changed since you were a kid/teen?
Confidence, experience, growth

28. Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life? Hell no

29. Are there times you still feel like a kid? Yes

30. Did you have a pager? Yes maybe 20 years ago

31. Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager?
I wasn’t allowed to do that

32. Were you the type of kid you would want your children to hang out with? Yes, but I don’t have kids

33. Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out for you? That I can remember from college Dr Z and Dr B

34. Do you tell stories that start with “when I was your age?”
Only if I’m trying to be funny.

Thankful May: Days 2-8

Thankful May Day 2: I’m grateful for walking a mile and walking again.
Thankful May Day 3: I’m grateful for cool days.
Thankful May Day 4: I’m grateful for tv shows and movies.
Thankful May Day 5: I’m grateful for home made burrito, anytime my Daddy cooks.
Thankful May Day 6: I’m grateful for a relaxing day.
Thankful May Day 7: I’m grateful for productivity.
Thankful May Day 8: I’m grateful for having a job.

Update from the Past Week

I have discovered Evol frozen meals.  They are organic and so good.  I have tried the ravioli ones, so good.  Also, love that Evol is love spelled backwards. 🙂

When it rains a lot I wish I was home watching a movie and drinking coffee.

Thursday April 27th: My car is broke down, guy who helped me on the side of the road thinks it’s my timing belt.

Working on a tow truck &getting it to a mechanic for tomorrow. Have someone who can pick me up once towed.Don’t know how I’m getting to work.

Friday April 28th:

I got to work Friday morning thanks to my Mama. She is awesome!

Just said goodbye to my PT Cruiser. 😭😭😭😭

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My new car is pictured above. A 2014 Hyundai Elantra. The dealership I have used before.  They treated me wonderfully.  I did an application online, and looked at a couple cars in my price range.  I talked with them on the phone and they brought me the car to look at. They came back with the car and paperwork to my work.  I got a good interest rate and payments are a little more.  However I got GAP insurance and extended warranty.   Plus I pay it off in 6 years instead of 7.  In addition, they cleaned it up and gave me new tires.  I’m very happy with my car.  It drives great. Since it has a fin, I decided to name my new car Shark Bait (Nemo’s nickname from Finding Nemo).

This past weekend I went into town to do laundry and grocery shopping.  I stopped by the dealership to sign over the PT Cruiser to them. Also, I visited with my Daddy on Sunday.  It was good but I was having weird emotions and we both are going thru a lot in our day to day lives.  It was good to spend some time with him.

My body…. Weekdays: 6am: I’m so freaking tired. Weekends: 5am: Whoohoo lets party!

Monday May 1st: Panic attack in the middle of the night. I figured with everything going on it would eventually happen. I’m ok now.

Happy Beltane to those who celebrate it! Blessed be!

Yesterday Tuesday May 2: Delicious! Midnight Mint Mocha Frappicino from Starbuck’s. Tastes like thin mints.  😃

Today May 3rd: My anxiety is acting up.  It was hard to leave home without worrying.  It is hard not to feel like everything might fall apart even though there is no reason for me to feel this way.  I know in time I will feel better. After work today Mama and I have plans to walk after work.  We did this last week too.  It is always good to see her and it will be good to exercise too.